Friday, March 04, 2005
3:10 PM

mood: shitty

this week has been poop. the whole damn week except for monday!! tuesday everything seemed to be fine until late at night when me and Padfoot were IM-ing. and then it began. she didn't want to be in Mr. J's room anymore cuz she felt uncomfortable. i think we didn't talk about it enough. wednesday morning came and he had on my favorite sweater of all time and we didn't go in there. we had to hang out in the sucky global room. that day was full of passing notes full of feelings and...........ugh, it was just bad! thursday was even weirder because wednesday night we had a chat with Lin and got her opinion. and of course, she took Chrissy's side. thursday was rotten. i still didn't go in his room. instead, i got to enjoy an uncomfortable morning in the global room. goody. our meeting was horrible. for the first time. i wrote an editorial pouring out my feelings about it and we were all too chicken to discuss it. very awakward. at least on thursday after the meeting i got some long awaited one on one time with Mr. J. i helped him carry books down to the cafeteria............:) -sigh- came home and had this HUGE discussion online about the editorial. well, they want space. sigh, i don't. oh sorry, "it's not about want". i guess they need the space. well, we tried it today and i have been a basket case. in the middle of the day i was ok but in the morning my mom was all asking me what was wrong cuz i kept tearing up! i wanted to cry the whole way to school. Mr. J wasn't here so i HAD to go to the global room. i talked to KELLY!!! i am so alone. no offense kelly.

here is what i feel. i feel like chrissy and lin are so like, made for each other. maybe i shouldn't try to butt in on their perfect little relationship. but then i think, i have a right to be friends with anyone i want. and i WANT to be friends with chrissy and lin. the thing is, i always end up feeling like a third wheel while they laugh their asses off at some joke i don't get and then they explain it to me and by then, it ain't funny anymore. and they have those huge long phone conversations where they get more stuff to talk about the next day and exclude me from. all i'm thinking is, "and you say you made changes for me????" it doesn't seem like it. all those things u mentioned online, u did out of your own free will. i thought you did it because you liked me. maybe i was wrong.

> *I solemnly swear that I'm up to no good* -Moony

Me

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%Mood: Busy
%Book: "Duty and Desire" by Pamela Aidan
%Song: KT Tunstall, AAR & Switchfoot
%TV:"Seinfeld", "Simpson's", "Frasier", "Arthur", "Nova", "The Apprentice"
%Film: "The Terminal"

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